hello blog of mine.

it appears that i had forgotten to bring myself along into 2009! i can't imagine where the past few weeks have gone. work has been manageable, and i suppose i'm finally adjusting to the idea of working for a news station, but i think a sinking feeling will always exist there. as soon as my shift begins, i sit in my chair, and look at the rundown for the day. it seems to never stray far from its previous day. the news never changes. it just has a new city, and death has a new face. seeing every ounce of the news seems to feel quite like a curse at times. i look forward to the days where the day is slow, and there is just enough time for me to edit and air a story at the end of the show about elephants eating christmas trees, or the world's longest pizza.

2009 and i seem to be graduating from acquaintances to friends very quickly. on most days i wake up with my lover smiling at me, and there are very few days where i can resist smiling back. adversely, my skin seems to be retaliating at me for who knows what i've done to it, so i've been very reclusive and even when i smile at him in the morning, at times i'd much rather be hiding my face underneath the pillow again.

but i have to say, more alarming than anything so far, i'm surprised at the thrill i've gotten that i'm going to be moving to a new house again this week. this would be the 5th time i've moved since january 2008. and the first time, it was heartbreaking, and the second time, it was preferred, and the third and the fourth my belongings seemed to just move themselves as if they finally surrendered the dream of staying in one place. i seem to enjoy waking up in a new place now. it's an excuse to start over.

to me, this new home can fix nearly anything.