maybe i'm simply not a writer.
when i see this blank window, most of my inspiration falls away. the only thing i can think to do here is vent, and that just isn't who i am. i wish i was in the proper head space to write the way i'd like to. i suppose it comes from having my high school friends slip between my fingers. i'm alone if lover is around. i hardly interact or speak with anyone outside of work besides lover and family. so my thoughts swim are left around in my head until they dissolve. my job dissipates any potential daydreaming. it starves it, and leaves no room aside from my objective of the day which washes away my entire being for 8 hours.
i'm waiting for the next chapter of my life to begin,
but i will have to wait until summer.
my wanderlust has taken hold of me, it watches each hour pass excitedly, knowing that the dull moment that just existed will be one less i will have to experience in this city.
21 will be my year. i can feel it. regardless of liquor, i have a feeling 21 might be the year this all starts to take shape.
it's not even christmas, and i already can't wait until june.
Are you a lister?
1 year ago
5 comments:
It's really nice to see that someone feels the same way I do. I'll be 21 in september and it just couldn't come soon enough! Time slips away so fast, so enjoy these moments before your next chapter in life.
I feel like that alot.. I have so much to say but I find it hard to put it down on paper.
When will you be 21? Don't wait for that to come because you never know what the future holds... The time is now. Stay bless!
I'm there with you. Next year can't come soon enough!
I love how you process stuff and put your thoughts down. You've grown so much from drawing a house every single day in your journal and now, look at how you verbalize those thoughts. If only you could put those thoughts into artistic creativity too! Ain't no stopping you!!
everyone can be (and usually is) a writer.
I've lurked around your blog for a while, because I simply adore the way you write. it captivates me. I am de-lurking to say I quite enjoy your writing, and would be sad to see you stop!
I also barely speak to anyone outside of family and my <3 either. I often feel like I'm narrowing my options for interacting with people. meeting people can be life-changing.
even if you're expectant to turn a year older, I'd suggest not to be so hasty. enjoy the present moment. being a year older will not change anything about your life unless you change it yourself. so if you want a change, why not change your life now? you don't have to wait another day, let alone another half year. :)
Hey honey. You definitely are a writer, if you weren't, then I wouldn't feel your personlality, your emotions through your words.
It's cold, here in Canada, the trees have lost their leaves; the world has fallen into sunder. Winter is a corner away, it is a time of rest and contemplation. I feel like I'm in a daze in winter, I always look forward to spring and summer. I feel like I'm holding my breath until then. I understand what you mean. 21 shall be your year, then, but try to make your 20' a good year too. :-)
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