lighter.

i woke up one morning these past few days, and my heart felt lighter. i suppose that is what it feels like to breathe. i'd like to keep it this way for awhile, and it seems as though it might be here to stay with or without my consent. i woke up the next morning and felt the same way; better. i woke up the day after that day and felt even better than the previous day. something that i've tried so hard everyday to achieve i've suddenly achieved subconsciously. i wasn't trying to be calm! i wasn't trying to be happy! and now it's here, and i will do anything i can to make this feeling grow. and even while my feelings come and go, my feelings for him grow deeper everyday. he has truly made me a lucky girl.